*NFL WEEK 14 (2020 Season)

The Washington Football Team has now won four games in a row. This was not a pretty win — it was a rough game for our offense, but our defense came through big time.

Alex Smith got injured in the 2nd quarter, and Dwayne Haskins came in to finish up the game — Haskins made some solid plays but continued to show some of the same things that prompted his benching. The good thing is that he did not make any costly mistakes.

The good news is that It seems like Alex Smith will be ok to start next week against Seattle. Although, I’m somewhat concerned with Antonio Gibson not being back soon. We are not the same team offensively without him.

The entire defense was pure fire in this game. Chase Young was a highlight machine, making plays and even scoring his first career NFL touchdown. The combination of Montez Sweat and Chase Young is becoming the most lethal edge-rushing combination in the NFL.

We are now in control of the NFC EAST Division at 6-7 and in an excellent position to win the Division title. The Seattle Seahawks will be another tough test, but this Washington Football Team can beat any team in the entire NFC, and that should be a scary idea for any potential playoff opponents.

WFT 23 — 49ers 15:

And for the rest of the league…..

NY GIANTS 7 — CARDINALS 26:

Arizona ended their 3 game losing streak by completely dominating a NY Giants team that was showing signs of life. The Cardinals are still alive for the playoffs, and next week they take on Philly and Jalen Hurts. The NY Giants went back to Danny Dimes over Colt McCoy, which was a mistake. Jones played one of his worst games as a pro, and it was evident that he was rushed back into playing. The bad thing for NY is that in the next two weeks, they play Cleveland and Baltimore, two teams on a tight race for a playoff spot. 

EAGLES 24 — SAINTS 21:

Jalen Hurts won his first NFL game on his first start and essentially ended Carson Wentz’s run as the starting Quarterback in Philly. The Saints unexpectantly took a loss here — Taysom Hill and Alvin Kamara were not as effective as in previous weeks. Maybe New Orleans should now be a bit concern going into the next few weeks without Drew Brees. Next Sunday, New Orleans takes on Kansas City, and maybe Drew Bress will be back by Sunday.

DALLAS 30 — BENGALS 7: 

This was a morale-boosting win for the pathetic Cowboys. Still, they have zero chance of any post-season life. They put up 30 points against a Cincinnati team without Joe Burrow.  It was a meaningless game.

BILLS 26 — STEELERS 15:

Buffalo is now 10-3 on top of the AFC EAST and in a pretty solid path to the Division title. The Steelers have now lost two games in a row, but they should not press the panick button just yet. They still have a 4-0 advantage over the AFC NORTH Division, and luckily they play Cincinnati next week, which should be a comfortable win and a nice rebound game for Pittsburgh. 

BUCCANEERS 26 — VIKINGS 14:

Tom Brady did not have a sensational day for fantasy stats, but he still managed to be effective with 2 TDs and zero interceptions. The last 3 games for Tampa Bay are all divisional games against Atlanta and Carolina; those are very much winnable games. The Vikings kicker Dan Bailey missed 4 crucial kicks, which accounted for 10 possible points left in the air. To make the playoffs, Minnesota now has to win out their remaining games and hope for Arizona to lose along the way. 

RAMS 24 —PATRIOTS 3:

Sean McVay finally got his Super Bowl revenge on Belicheater. Next Sunday, LA plays the winless Jets, which should be an easy win for them. New England took a significant hit to their playoff hopes with this loss, and it doesn’t get any easier for them next week, as they take on a Miami team looking to rebound after losing to Kansas City. 

CHIEFS 33 — DOLPHINS 27:

The Chiefs officially took the AFC WEST title with this victory, and now it is all about home-field advantage throughout the playoffs for Kansas City. Miami made this game difficult for Patrick Mahomes, but at the end of the day, the defending Super Bowl champs made the necessary adjustments to contain Tua and company. The Dolphins have a must-win game against New England next week.

RAVENS 47 — BROWNS 42:

what a great Monday Night Football game this was. Baker Mayfield and Lamar Jackson put on an offensive show. Nick Chubb and Kareem Hunt combined for 175 rushing yards with 3 TDs. Both defenses played hard. These two teams are making a hard run at the playoffs. Baltimore has the easiest path to win out.

COLTS 44 — RAIDERS 27:

The Colts have rediscovered their running game behind Jonathan Taylor, who ran for 150 yards and 2 TDs. Indianapolis is now one game behind Tennessee in the Division title race. Next week’s game against Houston is a crucial divisional matchup. The Raiders took a massive hit in their playoff hopes with this loss. Defensive Coordinator Paul Guenther was fired within a few hours after this game ended. Rod Marinelli is now tasked with steering this talented defense in the right direction heading into the last 3 games of the season. A divisional game against the LA Chargers is next for Jon Gruden’s Raiders. 

BEARS 36 — TEXANS 7:

Chicago ended their six-game losing streak in a blowout. The Bears only hope for a wildcard spot is to win out and hope for Minnesota to lose out. Houston is decimated with injuries, and not much is expected from them at this point in the season. 

SEAHAWKS 40 — NY JETS 3:

Seattle destroyed this pathetic winless NY Jets. It won’t be that easy for them next week, as they take on the formidable defense of The Washington Football team.

TITANS 31 — JAGUARS 10:

The Titans got themselves a comfortable win against one of the worst teams in the NFL. Detroit is next for Tennessee, which should be another easy win for them.

PACKERS 31 — LIONS 24:

Green Bay officially won the NFC NORTH Division title with this victory. The Packers have to win out the rest of the season to secure home-field advantage throughout the playoffs. The entire Detroit Lions team and coaching staff are basically auditioning for next season.

CHARGERS 20 — FALCONS 17:

These two teams are eliminated from any playoff contention and are playing out the schedule. 

BRONCOS 32 — PANTHERS 27:

Drew Lock had a monster game throwing 4 TDs and zero interceptions. Denver is looking to finish up the season respectfully. Carolina needs just to finish up the season and evaluate their players with an eye on next season. There is no need to rush Christian McCaffrey back this late in the season.

*NFL WEEK 3 (2020 Season)

Is it too early to panic? Maybe not, but the talk of benching Haskins has begun, which is insane because the kid has only started 10 games in his young NFL career, so no, he should not be benched. Well… unless something disastrous happens, then maybe we can start talking about Alex Smith taking over. Ron Rivera said right after the game that he is sticking with Haskins — which is the right thing to say after a rough game where Haskins threw 3 interceptions. This coaching staff will give Dwayne Haskins all the chances they possibly can to develop this season. However, if by season’s end, he has not shown enough signs of vast improvement, then the Quarterback position will need to be addressed yet again in the offseason.

There were a few bright spots in this game: Montez Sweat looks better and better each week. It was great seeing Kendall Fuller back on the field, and Terry McLaurin continues to be the brightest star of this offense.

We still have not established a solid running game; Antonio Gibson had some nice runs but only 9 rushing attempts. J.D. McKissic only had 5 rush attempts in this game. This is not an effective way to support a young quarterback and a suspect offensive line. The running game has got to be more consistent — I’m hoping Bryce Love gets into the mix soon and show what he has to offer. 

Look, things were looking promising early in the game until Chase Young got injured and exited the game. The team seemed to have lost some confidence without him — the defensive line did not look as dominant after his absence, and Cleveland began to run the ball more effectively. Hopefully, this injury isn’t a serious one, and Chase Young can get back soon. Hell, we have Lamar Jackson and the Ravens next Sunday. This game will be, by far, our toughest test this season.

And for the rest of the league:

49ERS 36 —GIANTS 9:

San Francisco came to this game, all banged up, and still pulled off a dominant victory. Nick Mullens was effective replacing Jimmy G. I don’t know if there is a quarterback controversy in San Francisco yet, but I wouldn’t be surprised if there is one soon. New York is a disaster right now; nothing is working, and it seems like the Daniel Jones experiment might be coming to an end soon. 

EAGLES 23 — BENGALS 23:

Philadelphia cannot catch a break, this tie might help them at the end of the season, but they are still winless at 0-2-1 for the year. If Carson Wentz continues to struggle, there might be talk of a quarterback switch pretty soon. Cincinnati seems to have found their quarterback of the future; Joe Burrow is playing well so far this season — he threw for over 300 yards with 2 TDs and zero interceptions— pretty impressive for a rookie.

SEAHAWKS 38 — COWBOYS 31:

Russell Wilson was on fire, throwing for over 300 yards with 5 TDs and zero interceptions, setting a scoring record with the most TDs this early in the season. Dallas continues to struggle defensively, especially in their secondary, and next week’s game against Cleveland will be an interesting test for them. Can they stop Cleveland’s dynamic run game? can they contain OBJ and Landry? I think not. 

CHIEFS 34 — RAVENS 20:

This was supposed to be the most anticipated game this week, and in a way, it kinda was. Patrick Mahomes and Kansas City seem to have Baltimore’s number; Lamar Jackson has lost 3 straight games against Mahomes and the Chiefs. However, next week’s game against Cam Newton’s Patriots will be another highly anticipated matchup for Kansas City. Baltimore plays Washington next week, and it should be a fun game to watch, especially if Washington defensive front can contain Jackson. 

PACKERS 37 — SAINTS 30:

Everyone keeps pointing at Drew Bress as the problem in New Orleans, but I don’t see it this way. There seems to be a movement in sports media to establish a narrative that Brees has lost a step, which I do not see as much as they claim to see. The Saints defense had a hard time stopping Rodgers, while Brees ended up with 288 yards and 3 TDs with zero interceptions. Those are substantial numbers, and they are statistical proof that Drew Bree’s is NOT on a decline.

TITANS 31 — VIKINGS 30:

Minnesota is a complete mess right now; their defense cannot stop anyone. Their offensive line cannot protect Cousins, and now they find themselves at 0-3 for the season, which is probably the most surprising thing this early in the football year. I thought they were poised to make a playoff run this season, and climbing out this whole seems unlikely. Tennessee is undefeated and looking like the playoff team they were late last season.

BILLS 35 — RAMS 32:

This was a rollercoaster game. Buffalo was ahead 21-3 halfway through the game, and by the end of the 4th quarter, the Rams were up 32-28, but with 15 seconds left in the game, Josh Allen threw a game-ending TD to put away Sean McVay’s team. Both of these teams will be contending for their divisions this season. The Rams get an easy game next week against the Giants, and Buffalo gets a banged-up Vegas Raider team.

STEELERS 28 — TEXANS 21:

Next to the Vikings, Houston is the most disappointing team this season. They are 0-3, and it feels like poetic justice that they are actually playing Minnesota next week. I think it is time to press the panic button for both of these teams. Pittsburg is now on top of the AFC North, looking forward to their matchup against Baltimore in week 7. 

COLTS 36 — JETS 7:

The Colts seemed to have figure out the formula to minimize Phillip Rivers’ interceptions, and it looks like the AFC South divisional title will come down between Indianapolis and Tennessee. The Jets were supposed to be better than what they have shown so far, and Adam Gase’s time in NY might be coming to an end soon.

PATRIOTS 36 — RAIDERS 20:

Cam Newton was contained, but New England still had enough in their arsenal to put up 36 points on a banged-up Raiders team. Next week New England visits Patrick Mahomes, which should be an excellent game.

BEARS 30 — FALCONS 26:

Trubisky finally got benched when Chicago was down 26-10, and Nick Foles came in to put up 20 answered points to keep Chicago at 3-0 and Atlanta winless. The Falcons should be in panic mode at this time, and it doesn’t get any easier for them against Aaron Rodgers next Sunday.

DOLPHINS 31 — JAGUARS 13:

Ryan Fitzmagic looks good yet again early in the season, and Jacksonville’s struggles are proof that Nick Foles wasn’t the real issue offensively for the Jaguars. 

PANTHERS 21 — CHARGERS 16:

Carolina, without McCaffrey, managed to dominate still and put away a tough Chargers team.

LIONS 26 — CARDINALS 23:

Detroit made things tough for Kyler Murray and essentially gave Matt Patricia a life-line for another week. Can the Lions do the same to Drew Brees next Sunday? I doubt it, but I cannot wait to watch this game. 

BUCCANEERS 28 —BRONCOS 10:

Tom Brady continues to look good in Tampa Bay, and they finally got Rob Gronkowski involved significantly in their offense. Denver is a complete mess, and they have not figured out a way to contend since Payton Manning retired. Maybe it is time for John Elway to step away from football operations.

*NFL WEEK 1 (2020 Season)

Man, does it feel good to start the 2020 NFL season with a signature victory. 

The Washington Football team was tested early, but they found a way to win. It was 17-7 at halftime, and things were looking rough for the ol’ burgundy and gold. Haskins looked shaky at times during the first half but managed to keep things steady and went into the second half more poised. The key for me was that he did not turn the ball over and made smart plays when needed. Scott Turner called a solid game in the second half, which made a difference in the final outcome. Nevertheless, the run game seems questionable still… maybe we pulled the trigger on Adrian Peterson too soon? we will see…

The defense was spectacular, especially the defensive front. Ryan Kerrigan seemed loosed and played well, becoming the all-time sack leader in team history. He seems to be at the perfect spot, surrounded by all these young talents. The pass rush overall looked furious, and it was coming from all over the place. Chase Young and Montez Sweat are a force to be reckoned with. This season is all about establishing a dominant defense that will set the pace for the future.

There is an evident and drastic difference between Jay Gruden and Ron Rivera. 

Rivera seems to command complete respect from his players. This team showed guts and swagger, which I have not seen since the Marty Schottenheimer team of 2001 and the Joe Gibbs 2.0 team.

Still feels hard to call them the Washington Football Team, but that is what they are……for now—excited about this young football team. 

Bring on Kyler Murray next week!!

WFT 27 — EAGLES 17

….and for the rest of the league:

CHIEFS 34 —TEXANS 20:

Clyde Edwards-Helaire seems to be the real deal, and Kansas City and Pat Mahomes look like early SuperBowl favorites. Houston got in a hole early in the game, and they did not have enough in their arsenal to mount a comeback. Everyone will be watching what goes down with this Houston team, and Bill O’Brien’s future as the Head Coach depends on the Texans making a deep run in the playoffs.

BEARS 27 — LIONS 17:

After struggling for the first 3 quarters, Trubisky threw 3 TDs in the 4th quarter to quiet the calls for Nick Foles to replace him. Detroit had this game almost wrapped up, and for some strange reason, they decided to switch defensive schemes, which allowed Chicago to get things going offensively. These 2 teams will be fun to watch this season.

SAINTS 34 — BUCCANEERS 23:

Tom Brady did not look as bad as some of the talking heads have claimed. I watched this entire game, and there were many drops, misreads, and bad protection. Tampa Bay will be better as the season progresses. New Orleans looked good, but I’m still not sold on them. 

SEAHAWKS 38 — FALCONS 25:

Russell Wilson was on fire, throwing 4 TDs: 2 in the 1st quarter, and 2 in the 3rd quarter with zero interceptions. Atlanta could not get their best playmakers like Julio Jones or Todd Gurley involved as much, and it cost them. 

BILLS 27 — JETS 17:

Josh Allen had himself an excellent season opener throwing for 2 TDs and running for another. The Jets fell behind early — they finally got their offense going in the 3rd and 4th quarters, but it wasn’t enough. 

PACKERS 43 —VIKINGS 34:

Aaron Rodgers had himself a monster day with 4 TDs and made a subtle statement to those who think he might be in decline. Minnesota got caught napping and fell behind. The Vikings are better than what they showed in the first half of this game. 

PATRIOTS 21 — DOLPHINS 11:

Cam Newton looked renewed and inspired, and Miami did not. Although, I expect the second year for the Dolphins under Brian Flores to be more competitive than the previous season. 

RAIDERS 34 — PANTHERS 30:

The Las Vegas Raiders are looking like contenders. The entire AFC West seems to be one of the most competitive divisions in the NFL. Carolina, without Cam Newton, seems to be a pretty dynamic team still. 

JAGUARS 27 — COLTS 20:

Gardner Minshew threw 3 TDs and seemed to have picked things up right from where he left off last season. On the other hand, Phillip Rivers did not change his ways from his days as a Charger and threw for over 300 yards and 2 interceptions. The colts need to establish a running game and limit the air game from Rivers. 

RAVENS 38 — BROWNS 6:

Lamar Jackson is, without a doubt, the most dynamic player in the NFL, and Baltimore is poised to make some noise this season. The Browns are just pathetic, and its only a matter of time until Baker Mayfield gets benched. 

CHARGERS 16 — BENGALS 13:

Tyrod Taylor was effective in his debut as a charger, and although he did not score any TDs, he did not create any costly mistakes like his predecessor would have. Cincinnati might be the surprise team this season. 

CARDINALS 24 — 49ERS 20:

Jimmy G struggled in parts of this game, and I think this season will be a referendum on him. Kyler Murray has an excellent weapon in Deandre Hopkins, and they seem to be on the same page already. 

RAMS 20 — COWBOYS 17:

Jared Goff was productive and more effective than Prescott. Dallas always gets hyped up by the media, but they are way overrated. The Rams are still an enigma, and next week they play Philly, which will be an interesting game to get a better sense of who they are. 

TITANS 16 — BRONCOS 14:

The kicking game was the storyline here, where Stephen Gostkowski missed every single field goal attempt and even an extra point, but he made the final kick of the game count, and that was all Tennesse needed to secure the win. Denver seems to be building around Drew Lock, and they might be a few pieces away from contention in the AFC West. 

STEELERS 26 — GIANTS 16:

Pittsburgh’s defense was solid, their running game was effective, and Big Ben threw 3 TDs with zero interceptions to put away the feisty Giants and spoil Joe Judge’s Head Coaching debut.

*MOVIE RECAP: THE VAST OF NIGHT

The more I think about this movie, the more I like it. THE VAST OF NIGHT feels like a familiar sci-fi story: Smalltown USA, cold war 1950s vibe, sightings in the sky, mysterious radio signals, and two kids as the central characters….. plus, the whole thing takes place in one single night.

Apparently, this film was rejected by a bunch of film festivals before finding a spot with Amazon Studios. It was pretty remarkable to hear how first-time writer-director Andrew Patterson self-funded this film.

We have Everett (Jake Horowitz), a local teenage radio DJ who plans to get out of this small town and make it in LA, where big things are happening in radio. We have Fay (Sierra McCormick), a high schooler who works as a telephone switchboard operator. She has no concrete plans of leaving her small-town life and feels like she is stuck there with no college prospects.

The chemistry between Fay and Everett is excellent; there is this platonic thing going on that works great. Sierra McCormick is remarkable in all her scenes; she has this unique and subtle screen presence — there is this cool scene early in the film where Everett and Fay are walking together, discussing the technology of the future. I thought that was a well-executed scene.

Fay picks up a strange noise while working at the switchboard, which coincides with sudden blackouts that seem out of the norm for this town. Pretty soon, both Fay and Everett realize something strange and unexplained is happening.

There is a mysterious phone call to the radio station from Billy (Bruce Davis), a former member of the military. This caller has first-hand knowledge of those strange signals and alludes to having been part of a secret government project. He reveals that personnel chosen to work on those secret projects were all Black or Mexican to ensure nobody will take them seriously if they ever try to go public.

Then, we have Mabel (Gail Cronauer), an elderly lady who calls Fay and Everett and tells them that she also has knowledge of these strange signals and requests to meet with them in person at her home.

I admire how this movie was shot — there are many interesting, complex shots, long takes, and tracking shots that worked nicely. The cars, the clothes, and even the eyeglasses worn by the characters capture the vibe of the 50s beautifully. The whole Twilight Zone, Outer Limits mood, is skillfully done. Even the name of the radio station is pretty neat; WOTW …. (War of the Worlds?).

But what I found most refreshing was how there is this sociopolitical theme building slowly underneath the story. We have two white teens coming into contact with two black characters who have direct knowledge of this phenomenon, but nobody will take them seriously due to their social status.

True lovers of cinema will undoubtedly enjoy this movie. It is an excellent alternative from all those mainstream movies out there.

The Vast of Night is a perfect example of how low-budget, independent, self-funded films can be well made and find an eager audience. Aspiring filmmakers and screenwriters, such as myself, should pay close attention to this film.

Three out of Five Popcorn Bags 🍿🍿🍿

THE VAST OF NIGHT (2019) Streaming on Prime

*05-08-20 (53 días de encierro)

Este era un año que para mi se perfilaba con muchísima actividad, y ahora, no me queda de otra mas que aplazar y retrasar todos los planes. Mi cuarentena empezó el 16 de marzo….ya llevo 53 días aislado completamente de todo. Las primeras semanas del confinamiento estuve muy preocupado por la incertidumbre de las cosas — Arregle mi situación de víveres y me encerré, pero no tenia muy claro que mas hacer, pensando mucho en la catastrófica realidad que tenemos enfrente.

Hay sobredosis de información y opiniones en todos los medios — Algunas buenas, pero la mayoría malas por falta de conocimiento medico acerca de la realidad de este virus. Y por encima, la incertidumbre de no saber como sera el futuro inmediato, ya que estamos a punto de dar un salto imprevisto hacia el futuro — Apunto de despedirnos del mundo que conocemos y de nuestra forma de vivir y entrar a nueva realidad.

¿Que va a pasar cuando todo esto termine?

¿El orden de las cosas a nivel mundial se reestablecerá?

¿Que pasara con los bares?

¿Los restaurantes?

¿Las discotecas? ¿Conciertos? ¿Estadios?

¿Y que pasara con el transporte publico?… Lugares donde se solía amontonar a las personas casi encima de cada uno, como en los buses, trenes y aviones. ¿Se tendrá que replantear la forma de movernos?

Por eso mismo pienso que esta crisis va para largo y supongo que con el paso de los días nos iremos acostumbrando a este nuevo ritmo de vida. Aunque la vida sedentaria es peligrosa, y estar en buena forma física y mental es fundamental. No nos quedará de otra más que re-programar nuestra manera de vivir.

Leo mucho sobre la Segunda Guerra Mundial, y encuentro inquietantes paralelismos con muchas cosas que están sucediendo a nivel global. Lecciones que muchos ya han olvidado — y algunos han tratado de que las olvidemos completamente. Existen muchos lobos acechando, dando vueltas a nuestro alrededor. Buscando formas de aprovecharse de la vulnerabilidad global y usar esta crisis para consolidar mas poder. Buscando formas de implementar el fascismo a un nivel mas grande.

Veo lecciones similares en la reconstrucción de Europa después de la Segunda Guerra Mundial centrada en el Estado del bienestar. Donde países Europeos colectivamente pusieron énfasis a la importancia del bienestar común — Beneficios económicos y sociales que algunos seguidores fieles de la supuestas leyes del mercado y el turbo capitalismo nunca reconocerán. La importancia y urgencia de que el Estado sea el encargado de sostener las economías, seguridad social, sanidad, salud pública etc…. Esos conceptos serán cruciales para poder enfrentar futuras crisis.

Desde mi punto de vista, acá en New York City, estoy viendo lo importante que son los servicios públicos y que, como sociedad, tendremos que poner mas énfasis a la sanidad publica en lo que sera esta nueva etapa de nuestra historia humana — Y al mismo tiempo sera importantísimo como seres humanos restablecer nuestra espiritualidad y el respeto por la naturaleza…. Apreciar mas nuestro alrededor. Nos creiamos invulnerables — Y este virus esta revelando nuestra fragilidad. Esta pandemia nos lleva a ponernos mas humildes, y a sentirnos mas pequeños. El mundo va a cambiar después de esto y la percepción de lo que realmente significa “existir” sera mejor. Pienso que sera de las pocas cosas positivas que vamos a sacar de esta crisis.

A nivel personal tengo mis altibajos. Tengo algunos días buenos y otros días down…. me paso días sin afeitarme, dejándome crecer la barba, la cual no me gusta — estoy acostumbrado a mantener mi cara siempre limpia y afeitada, mas que todo, por que me crece súper rápido….es un fastidio. Tener un rostro limpio siempre a sido parte de mi carta de presentación — pero tal vez algún día me la dejaré crecer completamente, quizás cuando llegue a mis 60s. Pero en estos días que no tengo que lidiar con el público no existe urgencia por mantener mi look habitual.

Con tantos días de encierro, ya echo de menos mi rutina urbana —Es que soy muy urbanista, extraño mucho caminar por esas gastadas calles de New York… Entrar a un bar, ordenar un Mezcal Negroni, o compartir una botella de Monastrell, o Tempranillo con buena compañía. Extraño aquellos bares de Jazz típicos de New York City que se han convertido en parte central de mi vida nocturna.

Me siento como Joaquin Sabina en su canción Lo Niego todo: “Me echaron de los bares que usuba de oficina.”

Quizás, lo que mas beneficio tiene este confinamiento es que me estoy poniendo mas al día con la musa y dejando que ella me busque y me hable. Siento que la estoy escuchando mejor sin el ruido y las distracciones de la rutina diaria. Evitando cosas que paralizan la creatividad.

Y al mismo tiempo, es súper fundamental continuar inmerso en esta trayectoria de sanación que estoy viviendo, tanto en lo personal como en lo existencial y creativo.

Paso los días escribiendo mucho, tarareando en este guion que estoy escribiendo, y al mismo tiempo dandole forma a una novela que lenta y simultáneamente estoy estructurando, inspirada por la vida de mi madre, utilizando su vida como base, alrededor de los años 70s, 80s y 90s, con el trasfondo histórico de los principios del narcotrafico en Bolivia. Mis intensas y personales conversaciones con mamá durante tantos años me están sirviendo como una invaluable fuente de información. Pero necesito ir estructurando mejor mis ideas — tejer un hilo narrativo mas claro y preciso. Acercarme más hacia el concepto de Nietzsche de el eterno regreso. Creo que lo que necesito es instalarme en un lugar aislado por unos 8 meses y poder escribirla completamente. Una cabaña en las montañas o en una casa de campo seria ideal. Pero eso es algo que atacare mas adelante.

Voy sobrellevando el encierro como puedo, apoyandome de las personas importantes a mi alrededor — como mi hermana, mi hija y mi pareja…. y algunos amigos cercanos. Mantener una comunicación directa y frecuente con ellos es importante. Pero la inquietud de no poder viajar a Virginia para ver a mi hermana y a mi hija es agobiante….

El contacto físico que no estoy teniendo ahora sera lo primordial que buscare cuando todo esto termine — y una vez las cosas empiezen a volver a la normalidad, pienso retomar los planes estancados por la crisis: Ver mas seguido a mi hermana, y llevar a mi hija a una tienda de vinilos, elegir y comprar discos juntos — luego pasarnos a tomar unos cocteles, entre padre e hija como nos hemos prometido. Ella heredo mi passion por la buena música y es coleccionista de vinilos igual que yo. Así que nuestras conversaciones musicales son intensas.

Es importantísimo usar este tiempo de confinamiento para ponerme al día con mi lista inmensa de películas que tengo pendiente. De mis libros amontonados en lista de espera para leer. Lista de cosas que tengo que hacer… ir tachándolas. Y cuando me encuentro con pensamientos negativos en estos días de encierro, el cine y la música le dan un toque de luz a los días grises. Me encuentro con algunos de mis discos favoritos que no pasan de moda y los estoy volviendo a escuchar. Esas cosas son mi refugio intellectual. Y aunque suene raro, la música y mi colección de films me están salvando de no caer en el desquicio.

Ultimamente llevo escuchando música de mi adolescencia, discos emblemáticos de mis años locos….vinilos de U2 (Pop y Achtung Baby), Draco Rosa (Vagabundo), Oasis (Whats the Story-Morning Glory?), y los Greatest Hits de Foo Fighters, Red Hot Chilli Peppers y Green Day. Esas grabaciones son obras cumbres, no solo en lo musical si no también en lo lírico…. y me traen recuerdos de aquellos años locos, cuando yo era un salvaje…. (bueno, creo en cierta forma, sigo siendo un salvaje). Escuchar esos vinilos durante este encierro es como hacer un ejercicio de arqueología, sobre todo cuando se trata de lindas ediciones en vinilo, que siempre me regresan a lugares y momentos felices de mi pasado.

En resumen, estoy usando estos tiempos de confinamiento, para hacer un honesto análisis, hacer recuento y ver lo que va quedando con el paso de los años. Y reflexionar sobre los vaivenes de mi vida pirata — pensar que todavia me queda tiempo… quizás no mucho, pero aun me queda tiempo para ser un mejor humano.

El soundtrack de estos 53 días de encierro.